#I think love should be irresistible how to#

I noticed she has been sleeping in all day until 5 or 6pm, and she goes to bed earlier then usual, it made no sense to me. I miss texting her more, laughing and having funny and enjoyable convos, where we texted more and she replied faster. but these past 7 days i feel like me and her were getting dry, like if our bond wasn't the same, like if something was wrong with her. she said me and her will rock together forever. She said i am like one of the realest people out there. me and her care and love eachother alot, she loves me because i always been there for her, and i always made her feel better, she said she wouldn't know what she do without me. I met her in middle school and me and her still text ALOT, like everyday. So there is this girl i have a big crush on, (not dating) I'm not ready to ask her out yet.

#I think love should be irresistible how to#

She continued to text me saying that he doesn't know how to deal with her when she's like this only I did so I agreed to help her out and comfort her, she asked me to be her boyfriend again but I refused because everyt Last week she broke down mentally and was calling and texting me non stop saying she wanted to hurt herself and she felt like a piece of shit for doing this to me, she wanted me to come over to help her out with her breakdown so I told her she needed to text her coworker and have him deal with it because I was really upset about the last few months. For about 5 months she was going back and forth between me and her coworker. We were officially done I grabbed my stuff and had completely moved out, couple weeks later she started texting me about how she had made a mistake so I went back to her. I asked her if she had done anything with anyone she kept telling me she had not done anything with anyone, so I pulled up her snapchat to show her that knew what had happen after I gave her space. Two days later I had found out she slept with her coworker by logging into her Snapchat. One day she gets texted saying she needed her space and if I could stay at my parents, for the first week I disagreed to it but shortly after I changed my mind thinking it might be a good idea and that I should respect her space. I would stay up until she got home to talk about her why she's been coming home late, she would she grab whatever she needed and she would leave again and not come back home until about 2 or 3 am. It was unusual of her to come home late because she's a nurse and her schedule required her to work the 5-7 shift. Couple weeks later we got into a huge argument after our argument she started acting different and coming home late. She dumped me because she had thought I was cheating on her but when she realized I wasn't wasn't things started slowly coming back together. we've lived together for about 2 years and recently broke up in February. I was with my ex for 3 years, she was my first and I was her first. The other day I told her I was having suicidal thoughts and t All the times I overdosed, cried for no reason, yelled over nothing, felt sad and fatigued for hours and hours. And I can't form coherent sentences and my vision gets all blurry. Whenever I overdose I start feeling all shaky and weak and dizzy.and my head starts throbbing.and it gets hard to breathe and it feels like my heart is beating way too fast. Next time I should use my whole fucking inhaler. It can lead to cardiac arrest or even death which is my goal. Why haven't I died already?! Albuterol overdose can be fatal. I can only have 4 puffs of albuterol in 24 hours- I keep taking around 20-50 puffs of it in less than 5-10 minutes. Sadly I never died but, she didn't even take me anywhere to get help any of the times I overdosed? And she knew I overdosed? Like this has been going on for months and months. Make us an appointment momДЄ lot of times I overdosed on albuterol because.suicidal thoughts. We haven't seen a doctor or dentist in TWO YEARS. She pulled us out because we were being bullied but we never started any other type of school. We're not getting an education since November. But she still doesn't wash our clothes and she actually knows how to-Д«ut like, she just lets our 61 year old grandma who is really weak and has asthma and lives in a hotel do our laundry? When she can literally just take it to the laundry mat and do it herself Yeah our washer is broken but there's a laundry mat not far at all from our house. We're 11 and 12 and we haven't learned how to do laundry yet. I feel like I'm being neglected by my mom but I don't know. Here are her words, sorry itвЂ™s really long SheвЂ™s an internet friend, so I just donвЂ™t know how I can help her over text. My friend is in trouble and I donвЂ™t know how to help her, sheвЂ™s going through so much and sheвЂ™s only 11.